I feel like giving up.I look for work,not finding anything.I get cash from welfare,I found out today I get 158 a month.But I have to do 100 comunity service hours.Thats like 1.50 an hour.Plus the kids dad has to pay it back cause he's not here with us.And I'm missing him more everyday.Wish I had money so I could get him here so we could do this together!!

I worked for years until I got sick.Now that I am better,and am able to work.I can't find anything.I'm looking every chance I get.Everywhere I go.I keep praying for something.I'm desperate,and willing to do almost anything.

My name is Lindsey.I am a 28 year old mother of 2 great kids.When I got pregant with my last child I started to suffer from depression really bad.I was put on meds that the doctor didn't tell me would cause my baby to have withdrawls after she was born.I couldn't figure out why she wouldn't stop crying.I felt so bad like I was not doing something right.Until I ran out of meds and went through the withdrawls myself.Then I felt horriable for putting her through that.I never would have taken the meds had I known that would happen to her.After I had her I had the worst pain in my belly I ever felt in my life.I had an inch and a half gallstone,which ment I had to have my gallbladder removed.6 days after my surgery I was told I had kidney cancer.I wanted to give up and die.I didn't think anything could get any worse.I had a 5 year old,a newborn,suffering from depression,healing from surgery,now I had cancer to.Then my mom died.Now I wish she was still here,and I think about her,and miss her everyday.But it made me see what it was like not to have a mom.I couldn't leave my kids to feel that way to.So her death woke me up.I had my kidney removed,and have been cancer free for 2 years.I moved to Fl. from Oh. to be with my family,while my kids dad took care of somethings there in Oh.The plan was to find work and get him here as soon as he could leave.We miss him so much.He is a good dad to our kids.All we want is him here.But I have not found work to pay for him to get here.I don't like asking anyone for anything.All I want besides him is a job.So we can take care of the kids ourselves.We need to come up with 700 dollars so we can be together again.We have not seen each other in 10 months.The kids cry and say they want to hug him,see himand play with him.And I can't do anything but cry myself,cause we all want,need and miss him.Had I known it would have taken this long to not find a job,I might not have come.Even if my family needed me,and I needed them.